I'd Rather Stab my Eye Out

Do you know how many times I defended you

Do you know how many times I listened to you

not knowing you were distorting the truth

Do you know how many people I hated for you

Do you know how many secrets I told only to you

not knowing you were telling them to other people too

Do you know everything you fucked up for me?

You were the only man,

I've ever let in

But now

I don't think about you anymore,

I don't wonder how you're doing

or if I'll see you at the store

You're not a picture in my mind

you're just someone who deluded me for a fleeting time

I don't want to know who you are now

I don't wanna know if you're sorry

Cause I'd rather stab my eye out

then look at your sad, sordid life

one more fucking time

Do you know all the people I told,

all the people who couldn't believe that you could do anything unsatisfactory.

Do you know how many people you deceived

we were all just collateral damage for your esurient life

Do you know all the times I shivered when you touched me

Do you know all the words you said that sent a shock down my spine

Do you know I can't trust anyone now,

because you showed off my murkiest memories

like they were ancient illustrations for all your friends to gawk at

But don't worry

I don't think about you anymore,

I don't wonder how you're doing

or if I'll see you at the store

You're not a picture in my mind

you're just someone who deluded me for a fleeting time

I don't want to know who you are now

I don't wanna know if you're sorry

Cause I'd rather stab my eye out

then look at your sad, sordid life

one more fucking time

You are five years my elder

and that doesn't matter

but why was I stuck cleaning up your life

You committed the deadliest sin

you convinced me to let you in

then you rode your little high horse

all the way over to her door

and now your nineteen

convincing a freshman in high school

that you're different then the men who prey on little kids

Just so you know,

theres nothing different about you,

you treat them like your prey,

until the day,

that they get too old and wise

to fall for one more lie

But don't worry

I don't think about you anymore,

you don't haunt my dreams like you used to

I don't wonder how you're doing

or if I'll see you at the store

You're not a picture in my mind

you're just someone who deluded me for a fleeting time

I don't want to know who you are now

I don't wanna know if you're sorry

Cause I'd rather stab my eye out

then look at your sad, sordid life

one more fucking time

but don't you worry

I'll be here,

you haven't seen the last of me

not yet

I'll show up when you're cold and dead

to throw dirt on your grave one more time

And they'll all think

I'm there to pay my respects

but little do they know

I just wanted to see for myself

that the wolf in sheep's clothing

the monster from under my bed

was dead