I Felt Love

I wanted to forget you,

I wanted to not die inside when I heard your name.

I wanted to be ok,

when you would make jokes in class.

But we don't always get what we want.

Instead, we get rage,

we get fear,

we get sadness,

we get regret,

and we get anger.

I felt all of these and more,

but overall, I felt love.

I felt love because I could let my walls go back up and I got to feel safe again.

I felt love because you were finally gone and I could finally love myself.

I felt hope because I would look at my phone and you weren't at the top.

I also felt dead,

cause you were my entire life for 4 years.

But overall I felt love.

I felt so much love.