I Used Too

Someone asked me,

"Do you know her?"

I never know how to answer those questions,

I never know if I should just say no and move on,

or say yes and get more questions.

When people ask me if I know you,

so many things go through my mind.

I remember dancing around in a field of flowers,

I remember getting the golf cart stuck and us pushing it out,

I remember the 3 am whispers and deep conversations.

I remember us,

everything we were,

everything we were to each other,

and everything we aren't anymore.

I saw your mom in the store the other day,

she stopped and said hello,

she asked how I had been and why I hadn't come over to the house in a while.

I never know how to answer those questions,

should I be honest and say that I loved you more than I've ever loved anyone,

should I stay silent as to avoid an awkward conversation with a stranger.

When people ask me if I know you,

I cannot say that I don't.

I cannot admit that I don't know you anymore,

I cannot admit that I don't know what boy you're in love with right now,

I cannot admit that I don't know how your aunt with cancer is doing,

I cannot admit that I don't know if your puppy's ear infection ever got better.

I cannot admit that I don't know you anymore.

So, when people ask,

"Do you know her?"

I simply say,

"I used to"