My Dream

Sometimes when I sleep,

and I'm trying to put all of my thoughts down with me.

Telling the voices in my head

that it's time to whisper good night.

Only one thought comes through the veiled curtain I lay,

time and time again.

A staircase,

candles lining the steps,

yet somehow not worried about a flame growing where it shouldn't.

White heels,

barely overtaken by the snow colored skirt.

My father waiting for me there,

holding his calloused hands out to me,

the look in his eyes says it all,

and I know terrified and elated at the exact same instance.

He puts his arm around mine,

he whispers, "You've always been my princess, now you get to be someone else's too"

I can feel the salted water already bubbling in my eyes.

He walks me down a carpeted hallway,

about a foots length away from me because of the sheer volume of my gown.

We reach wood,

I hear the pitter of my shoes,

and I know that nothing could ever prepare me for the moment I walk through that door.

He asks if I'm ready,

I've never my seen my dad cry before,

but now that he's giving me away

the flood gates have opened and it feels like they'll never close again.

He gives me a soft yet firm hug,

and I'm not worried he's stepping on my dress

because there's nothing more I want in that moment

then to hug my dad.

He takes a tissue out of the pocket of his rented tux,

and wipes his face.

He slowly puts the veil over my face,

and I'm not scared.

People always tell you that you'll be terrified,

but I wasn't,

I knew she would be there the second they opened those doors.

I take a deep breath.

I give the signal that it's time,

the deep oak wood doors creek open,

I look up to find the only hapiness I could ever need standing there.

She has a loose braid in her hair,

she looks to me and tears swell in her eyes,

perfectly timed right as mine give in.

Then a blackout,

a sweat filled burst up from my dream.

My mind saddens knowing that time was gone,

but then revives it's self

when I realize I get to relive it the next night,

and the one after that,

and then for real.

I get to have that with her in real life.

And that may be far away,

but that's alright because I can live off my dream,

just barely,

until she gets down on one knee.