She Loved Her

She loved her.

She really loved her,

she would have given anything for her.

She would have burnt the world down,

just for the chance to see her face again.

She wanted to pause time,

every time they kissed.

She wanted to sleep in her arms for the rest of her life.

She wanted her to never know pain,

but she knew pain.

The girl that was loved knew pain,

she knew so much pain,

more pain than the girl that loved her could ever comprehend.

She had mental demons that haunted her,

taunted her,

wanted her,

at every corner.

She had a broken mind,

yet her broken mind loved the girl.

In spite of herself she loved her.

When they were together all her pain would cease to exist.

Everything that had ever happened to her,

immediately just left her body,

right when the other girl would enter the room.

They were in love.

But love never lasts.

Love intoxicates you,

love controls you,

love makes you feel alive,

but love never lasts.

Eventually something happens that would ruin love for one forever.

Eventually the girl with the broken mind,

would succumb to her pain.

Eventually she would need to feel peace.

Eventually the demons would conquer the love.

I can imagine the battle,

I can see the knight fighting for her heart,

I can see it like it happened to me.

I can see it because it happened to me.

I left the girl that loved me more than anything,

I left her because I couldn't see how anyone could possibly love me.

I left her because she needs to live a life without pain,

I left her because I don't want her to see what's haunting me.

I left my soulmate,

I left her,

and I will never forgive myself for that.

I left her so I would fight a battle alone,

a battle with no end,

a battle with no winner.

I didn't want to put her through that.

But I still love her,

of course, I do.

She still means everything to me.

I check up on her,

she has a new lover,

their happy.

It hurts so bad,

It hurts like hell,

But I did it so she would never know what was inside my head.

I did it because I loved her more than I loved myself.

She doesn't know pain.

That's all I ever wanted for her,

to never know pain.