They told me to Shimmer

I wasn't always this sparkly,

it all happened so suddenly.

Mom was in and out of sanatorium,

I didn't know any homebase,

probably until tenth grade.

They changed my face, my hair, my name.

all to gain a little fame.

and it was fun in the beginning,

until I stopped thinning.

They told me to shimmer,

but I just wanted it dimmer.

They told me to dazzle,

until the judge hit the gavel.

They told me to shut up and smile,

Just screaming I'm a juvenile.

That fescennine little girl,

as innocent as a pearl.

Who stole her?

I did what they told me,

hoping I'd land on a marquee.

They tell me I'm an object of the male gaze

but who cares as long as the job pays.

They tell me to act like I like it,

what if I told you I'm a hypocrite.

I had sordid affairs,

my lovers playing a game of musical chairs.

They told me to shimmer,

but I just wanted it a little dimmer.

They told me to dazzle,

until the judge hit the gavel.

They told me to shut up and smile,

Just screaming I'm a juvenile.

That fescennine little girl,

as innocent as a pearl.

Who stole her?

I thought I was just numbing the pain,

and it started as just a little mary jane.

I thought I couldn't cause real damage,

but I guess I was at a disadvantage.

No one told me that those pills could kill,

no one helped me from that house on capital hill.

They told me to shimmer,

but I just wanted it a little dimmer.

They told me to dazzle,

until the judge hit the gavel.

They told me to shut up and smile,

Just screaming I'm a juvenile.

That fescennine little girl,

as innocent as a pearl.

Diamonds aren't a girls best friend,

that was just a trike toward a dead end.

I was never the blond bombshell they made me,

I just wanted to live life as carefree

as I could.

But they didn't let me,

no they didn't let me.

Who stole her?